Emotions

My emotions are quite strong and sometimes that can get out of hand. I'm learning to control these emotions at times but one can only control so much.

I am feeling down and I just don't know how to bring myself up again. I don't need anyone's help or pity, or anything for that matter. 

I just need to write this. 

I currently am, always have been and always will be a person that bottles up everything until it all explodes. I am a human being and sometimes make wrong decisions. This I know. However, I definitely I am one that does not wear her emotions on her sleeve. I am sneaky and I can often be tricky.
  
I am the black cat with the yellow eyes in the dark alley peeking through the cardboard boxes. 

I am becoming more organized in the physycal aspect of my life but I need to organize the emotions I have. It's a little hard when there's so many bottled up.

Heck, I might even be half asleep at 3:35 am writing this and will kick myself in the morning but right now this is going out there. If I change my mind I'll delete it tomorrow. 

Like I always say, I love color and I'm trying to cheer myself up by making this post colorful although I'm striving for a little more then color in my life right now.

::sigh::